Yes!!

March 25, 2015

Dear Joshua,

On my fast for love, I keep myself busy working for God in helping to plan for our Parish Convention 2014. Joshua, I am so convinced that I am working with you. I must admit, I am acting as if I am not attracted to you, but God ye knows I am head over heels.

Oh geesh you have a serious problem though, you are confused as ever and you are toying with my heart. Why are you doing that? I take note of how you can’t seem to even walk pass me without touching me or how you can’t help but giving me all your attention. How I’m longing for that again as I write this letter, yet I can’t help but think about how you shattered my heart after you asked for an opportunity to start a relationship. Why’d you do that? I hate you for that and I made it up in my mind to leave you alone.

My heart is enduring a lot because of you, to the times you pushed me aside, to your flirty little ways. Many saw us being great together even when I didn’t; I was hated because I was a threat to others, so it may seem. I was glad the day when you told me you were leaving for America! Ok fine, I was sad, but when you left I basically said away with you, at least I can get the chance to get you out of my system.

But Joshua, they say out of sight out of mind, but for me it is distance makes the heart grow founder. My feelings for you never left no matter how hard I try. So now that you are back I am somewhat ecstatic yet I still hate your guts. The cheerleaders on team “OK” are growing way out of my control as my life is getting ready to turn.

My 40 day fast is focusing on love, now I added 21 more days that is also focused on love, and then I will add 7 more days for completion. After these 21 days of fasting, I am asking God to give me my own name. Others have their Adam (the spouse they desire but have no idea who he is) and there and then the name Joshua came to my thoughts, boom, just like that. God, is a sneaky fellow ain't He? So with my own name, I am reading the book of Joshua, jotting down all the characteristics, and then I will go on a 7 day fast.

Signed: Your Little Miss Determined