Did I Make The Right Choice?
- Kaydian Malcolm
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1 min read
Dear Joshua, January 21, 5015
It's 14 days in this “relationship” I feel like I am still a single woman. Long-distance relationships are not easy to build and maintain. You are always busy and seem to have little time for me and I keep having a nagging feeling that you are not faithful. This is definitely not a good feeling to have in the space of 14 days. You make a good friend, but I really doubt your abilities for more.
In the midst of this, I must confess, I am scared. I’m scared that you’re not the one for me and that I’m in the way of God's will. I am so torn between two opinions. Why is this so hard for me?? I’m normally a professional at this, starting relationships and building them. I believe God has done a great shift in my life and has allowed me to accept that it’s not my will.
Are you in God’s will for me? Let’s try this and see what God will say. I’m wondering Joshua if He is speaking and I’m not hearing because I have that tendency to operate without hearing God. You are now just knowing this, but I took my phone several times to tell you that I no longer want to “try” us. But another side is pressing to believe that God will guide me to the place where he wants me or us. So I am trying us Joshua. I’m trying us.

Signed: Little Miss Trying
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