"Faint Addiction"

My caramel addiction soon wore off, it was obvious nothing fruitful will ever come from this friendship.

I got the message loud and clear when he quoted Usher's song "You remind me of a girl that I once knew, see her face whenever I, I look at you, wouldn't believe all of the things she put me through, this is why I just can't be with you". Couldn't he have told me this a few months ago?

The idea seemed beautiful and that's all I got stuck with...

Walking away with another stain on my already tainted garment, broken? Not so much, life went on, I had my double life to continue.

Deep down I knew I changed, I was conflicted because I felt purpose knocking on my door... "No I'm not ready, I need fun!!"

Looking back I still wish I could slap myself, but in the midst of my flings, acts of desperation, and stupidity, one thing that I vividly remember was PRAYER. Yup "Lord help me, change me, heal me, deliver me, strengthen me..."

Wildin out but not buried...