Massive doors

Dear Joshua, June 7, 2016

It’s been ages since I wrote to you, a lot has been happening, massive doors have been swinging open. I am here in Colombia teaching English. I needed this break, this opportunity to find myself.

I have been good, doing the best I can to leave a positive mark in this new environment while keeping my hope and eyes on the prize. Though homesickness often times overtakes me, I am strong so I will overcome. I have been good in mind as I am maturing, fighting my battles in prayer and watching out for the plans of the enemy.

My life is growing as “desperation” for a move of God in my life increases. My desperation has led me to set up my prayer room and declaration wall and yes, your name is plastered everywhere. Is this inner peace a sign of maturity? Is it that I am about to understand the mystery that I have been seeking for years? The anxiety of it all, yet I will be anxious for nothing.

The idea of my best friend being you, still lingers, though I’m doing my best to remain calm, the anxiety of my friends is through the roof. I am bombarded with questions and statements like: “Maybe he is Joshua”; “you don’t think that this could be it?” “I think God is talking” “Is he single or still in a relationship?”, “it’s him”.

But in the midst of this, I know you will be proud of me because I am calm as ever while clinging on to the words of the Lord, “wait”.

I know God is perfecting that which he has begun in us, for I know we will be a mighty force to be reckoned with especially in ministry, so I will continue to press for you Joshua, I will press because greatness I not achieved overnight, I will press.

Signed: Miss Grown and stronger than I was