Mistaken Identity!! Nope, I think not!

Running wild, I was conflicted. I felt the guilt of my double life, I felt God tapping me on the shoulders over and over to turn to him, but I turned away. I couldn't keep my man and hang on to God, 1 had to go and it was easier to let God go than my new found addiction. I was young.

I laugh because really I didn't know what attracted me to this guy, talk about a trance, I was in one!! He had no respect for me, not a sweet talker, far from a gentleman, spent not even a dime on me, and had several other women; What happened you might ask, did you not hear a TRANCE!!, well, to be honest, I just didn't see myself with having confidence so I took what came to me.

My double life started to get out of control, what I thought was a secret was on the lips of many. Here I am walking around the Bible, Devotionals, and Shaloms in my hand and lips while the displeased eyes are looking on my lies. The day I learned that I am being tossed to the side because "It not working out anymore", was the day I found out that my life was like clear glass.

Can I tell you, I felt like dirt!!!. ashamed, broken, rejected, hurt, confused, afraid, too embarrassed to run back to God, stained.