"So Shut the Door and Go back Home!!"

I tried to run away from my obviously embarrassing situation but I had to face the music and live with the consequences of my choices. There is a saying that goes "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me". I obviously never understood that saying because the mediocrity mentality was recharged and I was ready to go again.

Yes, I still thought about God, I tried to make amendments, I tried to run back to my former glory, but something kept pulling me back to living a double life. After all, I figured I was tainted, marked, and scarred, might as well live up to the new identity I found right?

Here came Mr. dark, mysterious, penetrating eyes while standing at the back of the room type of guy. He knew my story, so its good that he accepted me right? There I go again.

I've come to learn that men are quite ingenious when it comes to getting exactly what they "want" from a female. Carefully assessing and knowing exactly what ammo to use. Broken, lonely, and hurting female equals "I can get a few good thrills before she wises up".

I did it again!! sigh. Talk about weak-willed. Now before you judge me, 20 years old doesn't always mean maturity.

Anyways, you guessed it Mr. Dark and Mysterious gained his trills and disappeared as mysteriously as he appeared.

" No man, She must have learned her lesson by now..."