That's it, I'm staying Single!!

It's about time I learned my lesson. I think its time I make things right with God and enjoy my single life cause its obvious I'm not making the best of choices.

22 years old and a new leaf I unfold!!!

Smooth sailing, church life is going well, university lfe is good, everything is good!!

*pop* my Facebook messenger opened up, and there he was, a chubby guy I had ignorelifed years ago. I knew him but never exchanged many words. He asked me out on a date. date, car, his own money, of course, imma be there.

The car door opened, I entered and I melted. Wow, what happened over the two-year span? He wasn't chubby anymore! His face wasn't unnoticeable anymore! Handsome, handsome, handsome!!. I sat the entire journey looking at his face. Things went great, wait, I forgot about my "staying single" campaign.

Weeks turned into months and things were going good, no fuss, just fun, no pressure, I think I found him for real. So what happened?

My chapter 20 choices started to run me down, he had a center row seat to my previous deceptive double life. He knew all he needed to know and heard things that I didn't even know leaked to the public. He had his ammo, set, aim, fire, kill.

I honestly thought it was love, that he loved me, but I was the one in love, I got attached to him. He started to change. Here we go again, the "I gotta keep my man" games started once more. You win sir.

He won but I lost. He disappeared for months, no successful calls, no successful text messages, what is happening to me why does it feel like my heart is being ripped out?

I really loved him.....I lied for him, slept out for him...I changed for him....will I continue living in the choices of my past?