The Journey Begins- Prelude Pt. 2

While I was fighting my own self, pushing God away and doing as I pleased, God started me off in university, while I was still wearing the mask of, “a perfect Christian” I fell in love with the idea of the world, the ideologies of parties, not settling down and living wild and carefree; but, God blocked many opportunities for such a lifestyle.

In the year 2013, in the midst of my free-spirited life, at the age of 23, God ordained a shift in my life. It was time for me to remove the mask and start being a fulltime Christian. Yet, I was still deceived, I was lost, confused and I was broken. In my broken state I started to devote all to God, still struggling, but I decided to let God “help” me. For the first time, I could feel proud of being true to who I said I was, a child of God.

My “fairy tale” dream had by now, developed into determination. I now realized that I was no ordinary person. I saw that God was calling me higher and to something and to someone great; but achieving greatness requires work. For many, ‘someone great’ came easy, effortless; but for me, “great” required getting rid of all the confusion, finding myself, staying true to the God of my life, prayer, fasting, and dedication.

My new “leaf” or so I thought wasn’t easy, I was even more confused, I stayed true to my faith, but I was confused, I was depressed, I was frustrated, I was jealous, I was lost to who I was, I was just plain and simple tired of being single. In my weakness, the devil had his jolly good time, men came and I still got heartbroken, though true to my Christianity, I was still deceived by their good looks, charm, and the dream that always seemed to be fulfilling.

Going through the motions for years, the darts of the enemy stopped penetrating, they came, but I was at the stage of my life where I knew who I was. I am a child of a true and living King, I am a gem, I am a fighter, I am a mighty tool in the Kingdom of God, I am a worker in His kingdom, I am the head and not the tail, I am the first and not the last, I am above and not beneath, I am the apple of His eye, I am His hand made and I am His heart in the flesh.